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quote: It either happens when you are too busy in life and everything happens at once, but mostly happens when you have nothing at all and you are bored, at peace even. It strikes you in your most calm times... i think.
Originally posted by » Dani
I think you have a healthy view on this and life and I'm sure you'll get through this. I do know what you mean with everything you wrote though, even though I only felt it all for a very short period of time. I guess this happens when everything happens at the same time in life? That was the case for me at least = stress / mind full of what ifs / worries / etc = error. I never tried therapy either before but I'm considering it as soon as I've fixed my apartment and settled, even though I feel strong and perfectly fine atm. I'm thinking it doesn't hurt to try it. I too fear to talk about my childhood because I know there's a lot there they will probably be like "ahaa, makes sense.. ". I've only brought the lessons with me from the past and I can openly talk about it all today, but I fear the therapists will make it an excuse for things and I don't want that. That's basically why I'm like bleh... Maybe it'll just help me see why I made the choices I made in life. I donno. However, I think therapy can make us more aware. Maybe not solve the problems we struggle with but make us see things differently, which then will change our way to think and behave and that will eventually get us back on the right track. We are strong girls but we can need a helping hand too and not see that we do. I sadly don't think there are any short cuts than to bite the sour apple. How long has this been going on for you? And has it become better? I didn't quiet understand how you are feeling today (except for the need of that pill).
And thank you for your nice words to me ♥
I'm better.. it has been happening for a whole year. Started last september, i was stressing for a month before that.. expecting the worse. And the worst came, caused by a medium earthquake where i thought i was dying. I was afraid of my reaction, started panicing and lost myself briefly, had muscle spasms on my hands... and after that i was stressing at everything, thinking it's gonna repeat. I was scared of the freezing of my body. The root of my problem was fear of my fear. It all sounds weird and i don't blame you if you can't understand it.. it took me a long time of researching my issue step by step to finally get it myself. It was all caused by simple hyperventilation.
I had bad periods... i sometimes felt better, but i'm working on myself every single day for a whole year now. And nowadays i feel strong and confident. I understand and accept my problem and work through it. My wedding was my biggest worry, because of the spotlight issue, but i handled it nicely and everything was perfect. It all gave me even more strength.
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