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Registered: Aug 2007
Originally posted by P!nkfan#1
kinda sounds like when I used to be unsure about myself..
I mean I had never been in a real relationship with a guy, and never had proper feelings towards the opposite gender either.
Then I started posting on here back in 2004 (I was 16 then), met loads of queer people online, and a few months later I started college, and then there was a girl who I kinda started fancying..I just couldn't take my eyes off her, and that resulted in a huge crush that lasted for over a year lol
tho I still denied the truth for myself and everyone else, until I gave it some thoughts, and asked myself.."am I bi or am I gay?" then I took it into further reflection, "do I really see any interest in guys? can I really picture myself in a heterosexual relationship?" and I came to the conclusion that no was the answer, then I asked around on here, how they found out and such.. I finally realised after a few years that I wasn't in a phase like people tend to say it is, that it's not something temporary but something I'll continue with.
I only came out as a lesbian this spring, after having doubts over a year.
I guess comming on here kinda "triggered" that question further..I now know for sure that girls are the ones I want and commit to..and not the opposite.
It's totally okay to be in doubt, it's all part of the human nature.. sooner or later, you will find out what your true identity is...
all I can say is, even if it's hard.. give it some time, to both reflect upon things and think upon what you feel is right. If you feel that girls are right for you, than that's the answer...
I hope that made sense
Mmmm yeah well i've actually had crushes on girls before... and when I started to question myself, I realised that i've never even really thought about or looked twice at guys.. which still doesn't realllllly give me an answer. I'm not sure why. See I don't know if it is a phase or if i'm just in denial. Then again, I can't be in denial because whenver I think about it, I don't say to myself "Don't be stupid, of course you're not gay".. I just really think about it and think about it and think about it and think about it all the time lol.
I think that time is the key really. I think about it all the time and if there was something that triggered the answer then i'm sure by now it would've happened as it's been about a year, but I really don't think that any time soon i'll figure it out. I hope I do but I can't see what would happen that would answer this constant question hanging over me. Unless of course, the same thing happens to me that had happened to you. I find someone that I really like or I develop a relationship with someone. I've got two years left of high school though which are the most important and i'm planing on working my a** off rather than focussing on meeting someone. Although I can't get it off my mind, I can try to block it out and work..... and I guess only time will tell what the true answer is..
Thankyou so much for that. I really appreciate it. It really helps to talk to people I think. Just so that I know I can relate with people and to know that people were or are standing where I am at the moment..
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