2nd Grammy Level
Registered: Nov 2008
Originally posted by » Dani
Uhhh, do you have to take pills for your pains? You're right about that. It helps so much to do what you need to do rather force yourself and do whatever you have planned and feel grumpy and restless.
I'm stable as a rock three weeks and litterally not much can get me out of balance emotionally. And then there's that week with every emotion you could ever imagine just flying around punching you like a boxing glove and making fun of you and you can't really catch it and put it down it just keeps going on and on, basically. And I can handle it, but I just don't like it. And it's just private. To friends I am just mostly short, calm and not as up and happy as I usually am. At work I don't even notice it during that week. But it's like a nervous feeling starts automatically when I get off work, lol. Then the only thing I wanna do is be alone, have a bath, eat fat and carbs (definitely not protein, haha) like cheetos or pizza and drink wine and cry to movies and listen to sad songs, and feel miserable about myself and my life, and cry because there's a cute dog in a video on Facebook. Whaaa whaaa. The other day my friend called me in the middle of a huge cry moment I had and she was like what happened why are you crying I'm like nothing whaa whaaa, but I was sad at the same time, haha. And when I've done that for some time I get happy again as if nothing. I on the other side rarely or never have stomach aches, headaches or back pains etc like I hear people do. So maybe I'm lucky, but it sure feels like it's gone worse mood wise. Or maybe I'm just more aware now. Or maybe I am just still hurt and I don't wanna admit it. I donno. Even though I know it's just PMS week it still sucks because I feel so friggin alone in this at the time.
For the pains inside I take painkillers, they sometimes help, for the pains in my head painkillers don't work, I need a dark quiet room, and to lie down and close my eyes, sometimes my head hurts so much I cry, not because I'm getting emotional about it just because the pain is the worst pain you can't imagine unless you've had it, but I have to try try try my best to not cry, because everyone knows even a little headache feels worse when you do cry!
I think you may still be hurting d, things like 2017 for you are not easy, it takes time they say it really take half the time of a relationship to get over it, 6 months takes 3 months year takes 6 months, I belive that you know your truly ready to be "over it, " when you find the right person
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