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quote: very well put. I also feel that we all experience this to some extent at some point in our lives.
Originally posted by Ninx<3
This was really interesting to read, how you feel so alone in this... but I just think we're all lost. At least at some point in your life you have to get a little lost, and when you're lost enough you sometimes find yourself. CHEESY AF i know.
I have no idea what I want to do with my life either, but I take each day at a time, and I try to tell myself that baby steps are okay. It's still progress. I know I want to travel, I know calligraphy and music make me happy, I know I study English language bc I'm a bit of a grammar Nazi. And I remind myself every day to be grateful for all the things that I'm able to do - all of my hobbies and my studies, and even work. And even if I don't know where I am going, I still know where I came from, so I try to spend a lot of time with my family/loved ones. (awww )
In your case, quitting drinking (well done yay!) is obviously just a small part of the puzzle, a baby step. But it's progress, so just keep going and keep your head up.
As far as jobs go, you obviously have some idea of what you want to do, but I guess you're kind of like me. If you somehow subconsciously know that you're even a little passionate about sth, you're going to freak out over it - anxiety attacks, panic attacks, you name it. I usually try to go for a walk and calm down. At the end of the day everything's gonna work out fine.
TL;DR: You're not alone in this. Keep your head up and remind yourself that baby steps are fine. It doesn't matter how fast you make progress, so long as you make it.
Also, i know what you feel because i am hyperaware and hypersensitive too but we need to teach ourselves that other people scrutinize us and our work waaaaaay less than we imagine.
On the other hand, you should just do whatever makes you happy. A job is just a job, money is just money, where you live is just a place but what really matters is people you spend your life with. So the only thing that you really should try to work out is your relationship imo.
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